yes,i quit my hosting job,and i lost a lot of friends as well.
i don't know how to express being the most notorious person in my school,cuz it's just the way too retarded.i remember someone told me b4 like,"plz be ready for take the shit from the people who don't like u,cuz they have a thousand ways to kill you.just be quiet and never express ur extreme point of view until u become some one big of the world."true.now i can totally understand what was she talking about.
honestly,the jon i just quited was not an pleasant experience,but i also learnd and realized something from this job i used to have.DO NOT EVER THINK ABOUT U CAN EFFECT THE WORLD B4 U BEING REALLY BIG,AND DO NOT YELLING SOMETHING WHICH ONE U THINK U MIGHT HELP SOMEONE WHEN U ARE STILL NO ONE.is it clear??or u will be like me,becoming a god damn huge joke in ur life,even in this world.
i was wondering about what bring this shit coming to my life,but i can't even find an answer.it's just ....fucked-up.i'm sure u know what i'm talking about.and i can't believe i still need to handle this shit even i'm going to graduate soon.but the good thing is,i realized some one tell u they r ur FRIEND but actually they r not,and being quiet is always the best option if u really need to pick up one.
so,being famous is not that interesting,especially when u r still too young to handle this.sometime u think u didn't change after u were someone big,but the point is,THE PEOPLE AROUND YOU WILL BE CHANGED.maybe b4 u weren's famous u don't need to worry about every single thing u said,u did;but now they might just watching u no matter u r close with them or not.it might be ur weakness for them,and they might take ur weakness to take as their weapons and trying to ruin ur life.if u don't think u can handle it,then shut ur mouth and be quiet.that's what i'm going to do next.
but i still believe,"what goes around,comes around".it's a real wrold which one is pretty cruel.i just fell over,but i'm sure i will be the way much stronger than i used to b4.
people r not that innocent like what u though b4.is that true?
