20070216 my crazy life.

i can't believe my life getting soooooo busy like this which one i didn't expect for that.

i just start working on the new project for the new show i'm going to host,and had signed the contract as well.the show calls"RollStar",it's kinda like a musical program but only talk about the indie music enviroment in taiwan-which one was my favorite before.and the contract said i need to host for 2 seasons,which one means 26 episode as well.crazy,huh?

and the point is,the show was supposed to be air in the MTV channel in taiwan,but now they just seperate for 2 version-one will be on MTV,but the version i'm going to do now will not air on MTV channel.surprised??don't take it as a bad thing or start thinking about how stupid i am to take this job.just listen to me.the version i'm going to do will be air in all the mcdonald's restaurants in taiwan,and that also means will be air in almost 300 spots around my country.and the time for airing will be 5~7pm,which one will gather more people to go to mcdonald as well.and not only this,they will air these 2 seasons of this show for one year,so now u can see me anytime u want,even though u just wanna sit down and eat ur big mac,but u will still see me in ACCIDENTLY.so gross!!

it seems like this is a pretty good chance to me for training my hosting ability,but i must to say this will be the most defficult job i have ever had so far as well.the show will be in chinese,but i usually speaking chinese REALLY REALLY FAST and usually people can't understand what i'm talking about;second,i did love indie-music a lot,but i'm not really understand all the indie-music sistuation in taiwan very much.and tomorrow is the first day for the longest holiday in traditional chinese family of the year -the chinese new year!!i REALLY REALLY WANNA TAKE A LITTLE BREAK,cuz i was so busy in last semester.but i don't think i can,i need to searching for some information about my new show until it's too late.

the show will be air in the end of march,and we also planning to invite some great indie artist start a little tour at some mcdonald's around taiwan.and maybe i will be there and hosting the show like the "TRL" thing.it will be the huge challenge for me from this job.but i don't care about the insurance for taking this chance or something like maybe i will f*ck-up the show.cuz i take it as another experience for me and maybe i can take this experience to apply some tv-production companies in NYC as well.anyway,we are setting the website and blog thing now,and i also will write something in the website and maybe recommend some great indie musician i knew from another country or myspace......i will post the link later.

20070214 "f**k-u"attitude.

i know today is the god dang valentine's day,but the thing i'm going to talk about today is the "f**k-u" attitude from all the people i've met so far.

i think i'm just the way treat people too nice.cuz i used to think if u treat people nicer,then u will get the same thing in return.but now,i'm sorry i have to tell you,i'm not in the same though.and i won't give a sh*t anymore.

the series producer of "5 takes"-who is also the teacher of my life-told me,"treating people nice is a good thing,but sometime u need to protect urself first.".now i can totally understand what he talks about.there r too many people around me who i take them as my FRIENDS,but after my journey of u.s.a,i finally realize one thing i have to change imediately is-i should stop always being nice to the people who just trying to hurt me or something.seriously,i can't look at them in the same way i used to do now,and who the f*ck will care about it?cuz they don't look me in the same way which one is pretty bad now,either.they didn't even put me in their eyes b4,they just living in their pathetic dream which one i think it's totally rediculous.

so maybe i should explaine the thing i said i can't look them in the same way now.i know more people know me from the world now,but for me the most important thing i got from my trip is-i have more confidence for myself than b4.it's not about growing up and being cocky by the fame i got,it just about change.especially u've tried so long for paying the respect for your "friends" but after the few times,u find out there's no way in hell to take it back in return.then the next thing u usually do is asking for urself,"what for?".and i found it now.seriously,people usually like get the good comments about themself no matter is fake or not.so just be polite to everyone u meet,even though he/she is ur best friend around the world.but remember,if they r really ur friends,they will never push u to the hell again especially when u r in the huge trouble or feeling depress.they can tell u how cruel the world is it but not trying to ruin you and show u how good they are.so,if u have some "friends" like this,the best suggestion i can give it to you is "say good-bye to ur friend and make them feel how painful for being in hell."

anyway,i didn't meant to be a bi*ch,i'm just speaking the truth.and of course i'm not always as happy or hilirious as what u saw from me on tv.be totally confident about urself and also be appreciate for the people who hurted you before.cuz it reminds of u will never wanna be the worst person like them.happy valentines!!

20070211 after "5 takes:U.S.A"

right,i can tell "5 takes :u.s.a" will be one of the bext experience of my life.i never expect i can be on the international tv show,and i didn't expect when i walking on the street of nyc,people can recognize me there.that pretty crazy and unbelievable to me.

i was talking with jaime last nite,and i told her like i think "5 takes" experience is truning to a nightmare to me so far.she was like "how come??",and i guess she think what i told her next it doesn't make sence to her.seriously,i always had one dream which one is to proof something to the world (not only to my family and friends),but i think i'm still to young to do that.i though i can look back after this like i didn't leave my country before,but i'm sorry,i can't.i can't even go back to the job like working in the restaurant or the bartender in the bar.and anotrher point is,i'm going to graduate.i need to start thinking about what i wanna be and where should i put my future in the rest of my life.i can't keep on hanging around anymore.

am i becoming too greedy??i gues i am.even my father told me my greedy makes sence cuz i'm still to young,and he told me an old chinese phrase "少年得志大不幸".well,i can totally understand what that phrase about.he told me like it's not my fault to want more,but the point is doing the best on what u r doing.i can't just wait for the chance coming,i need to find the chance by my own.i agree with him.at leats he's always the wisedom one who give us help in the family.well,my mom as well.

so,it's the end.i'm looking for another memorable experience in my life.i don't care how much u r going to pay me but plz plz,i'm begging you,just let me do the thing i want to do before i get into this extraordinary world.is it hard?it never be hard.just firgure out what i want first and see what happend.