I know it won't be easy, chasing your dream in the rest of your journey.
I admit, I always put my self to the deep depression and starting hate everything I had, everyone I know, including my parents. I'm really afraid that me will capture my mind and take off all of my passion and innocence. I'm really scared.
That's why it took so long so far for me to dominate myself.
These days, I was keep on thinking about "what I want" and "what kind of person I want me to be". That's right, it's all about DREAM. 10 minutes ago, I might tell you DREAM just a obsession which devil starts feeding us since we born, 'cuz not too many people can reach their goal until they get into their grave. I guess I might be wrong. Well, I'm not the lucky one, if my dream coming to me too early then my life will being totally meaningless. Sometime I wanna shoot myself cuz I think everything is so unfair, but I never try to fix it. So who else I'm going to blame for? No one. Also I do believe one thing I used to reject it calls "instant karma", so I know I can't stop hurting people cuz in the end, what they have been through will come back to me. And of course, it won't be pleasant.
So I'm still trying to figure out what I gonna do and what I can do, and I'm really confused and upset in these few months. Then I saw Aung San Suu Xyi's picture, I know I can do anything but the only thing I can't make sure I can do it best or not. I wanna be a big one and make a world to a better place, I wanna help the child like me out, I wanna, I want to......
"No pain, no gain." I guess.
