20070214 "f**k-u"attitude.

i know today is the god dang valentine's day,but the thing i'm going to talk about today is the "f**k-u" attitude from all the people i've met so far.

i think i'm just the way treat people too nice.cuz i used to think if u treat people nicer,then u will get the same thing in return.but now,i'm sorry i have to tell you,i'm not in the same though.and i won't give a sh*t anymore.

the series producer of "5 takes"-who is also the teacher of my life-told me,"treating people nice is a good thing,but sometime u need to protect urself first.".now i can totally understand what he talks about.there r too many people around me who i take them as my FRIENDS,but after my journey of u.s.a,i finally realize one thing i have to change imediately is-i should stop always being nice to the people who just trying to hurt me or something.seriously,i can't look at them in the same way i used to do now,and who the f*ck will care about it?cuz they don't look me in the same way which one is pretty bad now,either.they didn't even put me in their eyes b4,they just living in their pathetic dream which one i think it's totally rediculous.

so maybe i should explaine the thing i said i can't look them in the same way now.i know more people know me from the world now,but for me the most important thing i got from my trip is-i have more confidence for myself than b4.it's not about growing up and being cocky by the fame i got,it just about change.especially u've tried so long for paying the respect for your "friends" but after the few times,u find out there's no way in hell to take it back in return.then the next thing u usually do is asking for urself,"what for?".and i found it now.seriously,people usually like get the good comments about themself no matter is fake or not.so just be polite to everyone u meet,even though he/she is ur best friend around the world.but remember,if they r really ur friends,they will never push u to the hell again especially when u r in the huge trouble or feeling depress.they can tell u how cruel the world is it but not trying to ruin you and show u how good they are.so,if u have some "friends" like this,the best suggestion i can give it to you is "say good-bye to ur friend and make them feel how painful for being in hell."

anyway,i didn't meant to be a bi*ch,i'm just speaking the truth.and of course i'm not always as happy or hilirious as what u saw from me on tv.be totally confident about urself and also be appreciate for the people who hurted you before.cuz it reminds of u will never wanna be the worst person like them.happy valentines!!