20070211 after "5 takes:U.S.A"

right,i can tell "5 takes :u.s.a" will be one of the bext experience of my life.i never expect i can be on the international tv show,and i didn't expect when i walking on the street of nyc,people can recognize me there.that pretty crazy and unbelievable to me.

i was talking with jaime last nite,and i told her like i think "5 takes" experience is truning to a nightmare to me so far.she was like "how come??",and i guess she think what i told her next it doesn't make sence to her.seriously,i always had one dream which one is to proof something to the world (not only to my family and friends),but i think i'm still to young to do that.i though i can look back after this like i didn't leave my country before,but i'm sorry,i can't.i can't even go back to the job like working in the restaurant or the bartender in the bar.and anotrher point is,i'm going to graduate.i need to start thinking about what i wanna be and where should i put my future in the rest of my life.i can't keep on hanging around anymore.

am i becoming too greedy??i gues i am.even my father told me my greedy makes sence cuz i'm still to young,and he told me an old chinese phrase "少年得志大不幸".well,i can totally understand what that phrase about.he told me like it's not my fault to want more,but the point is doing the best on what u r doing.i can't just wait for the chance coming,i need to find the chance by my own.i agree with him.at leats he's always the wisedom one who give us help in the family.well,my mom as well.

so,it's the end.i'm looking for another memorable experience in my life.i don't care how much u r going to pay me but plz plz,i'm begging you,just let me do the thing i want to do before i get into this extraordinary world.is it hard?it never be hard.just firgure out what i want first and see what happend.